A Drop in the Ocean

I love my job but there are days when it can be extremely challenging.  Normally on those nights I end up going to the track and running off steam.  Lately, it’s been a reoccurring theme.

Yesterday was a particularly hard day and I ended up walking one of our boys home to make sure he arrived safely.  I’ve seen every side to his behaviour.  It ranges from being extremely respectful and being a thoughtful helper to being the devil unleashed and maintaining an “I’m going to beat up that punk” attitude.  He exhibited the latter behaviour yesterday and I think most of us were just physically and emotionally drained by the end of the day.

This will be my fourth year working at the club and each year I come to the point when I end up questioning my sanity.  I come home discouraged, angry and extremely frustrated because we’ll take two steps forward one day and then three steps back the next day.

My heart and spirit were definitely broken as I walked back to the house yesterday.  I kept asking, “God, what are we doing here?  Are we making any type of difference?”  Later, after my run, I found this quote online.

“What we do is less than a drop in the ocean. But if it were missing, the ocean would lack something.”~Mother Teresa

Many times we focus solely on the bad and forget about the good.  We get so frustrated that we miss a smile or the beautiful laughter that is occurring nearby.

So this is my pep talk to myself.  Erin, you are one measly drop in the ocean.  You may not feel like you are making a difference but without you, something would be missing.  There is always a ripple effect.   Our actions and words have an impact and we may not see it every day.  However, I can make sure, even through the frustration, that my kids know I love them.  Why else would I come back every year?

I am one measly drop but sometimes that one measly drop is needed.